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okay, so that's technically not what I look like RIGHT now... as I am sitting here in a huge black sweatshirt (my bro's old one - and it could probably eat me if it wanted to). But that was me like a minute ago!Anyways, I'm like totally excited that all my midterms are finally over - (although the last one was a killer, failure for sure...). But this means that exams are right around the corner. Literally, they start next week for me! And I have 4 in one week!! Ooch! Oh, and if you were wondering, I also have two major projects due next week! Worst of all class isn't over yet! lol. Anyways, I'll be home in much less than a month. yah! I'm of course dreaming of all the good shopping and seeing tons of people that I missed last visit home. I seriously can't wait!
Honestly can't wait to go home. Christmas is soo soon, as I am constantly reminded... and this semester seems everlasting - in a bad way! arg. I'm more so angry that I STILL have midterms. Hard ones too. grrrr. Anyways, I can't wait until my hard exams are over! The week I have before I go home sounds like a blast, and then my time home should be amazing... as I hope to have the chance to see everyone!!LATELY-Friday: Nightime shopping after Craig locked himself out of his room.-Saturday: Maggie's party... ha ha, firedrill!!-Sunday: Alice's phone call!! (Can't believe we went through TWO calling cards!)
Days leading up to the end of this week have been stressful. Today I had a midterm... (woot! only one more to go before exams start!). [Perhaps you wish me to post au sujet d'un petit event prior of which most are ignorant, but I thought nothing of it - and it had no effect ni évocation.] Anyways, tomorrow I have both a major essay for English, and an analysis for ESP. I think my essay is yucky, although prior to yesterday I was modestly pleased with it. The analysis on the other hand as yet to be completed. That's right... Shannon actually hasn't had it finished for like a week or something! We all remember high school, we know I never did my stuff last minute... but you can't imagine how much stuff I had to do lately. In my spare time I was too tired to even look at it. Of course it's not like it hasn't been started. lol. Seriously, did you think I could ever leave something completely to the last minute?! ha ha. I doubt it.
Ballerina days. ha ha, yesterday I really felt like a pretty ballerina as I had my hair in a tight bun and wore only pink. Sadly I had let my hair dry all tied up and when I took it out last night I realized it was insane! My hair was totally crazy! ha ha! So today I had to wear it up in a bun again! But it totally doesn't look I like have any hair in this photo. meh. Anyways, yesterday was boring because of sooo much homework... at least it seemed that way. I was working hard on my essay and almost finished it - so when I got up this morning that was the first thing I did. I finished it after lunch and then went shopping with Craig in celebration. Now I am working on my next project thing. oh the funness never stops! Ummm, last night Craig and I watched Sleeping Beauty!!! It's like so the best movie ever!! I've seen it like a billion times, and absolutely love it! I always thought that she was one of the prettiest disney princesses. lol. Anyways, back to my homework - I have a really busy week coming up!
Tonight, even though I really have to start doing my English essay, Craig and I ordered dinner in! Yummy! Later on we decided to go out, cuz it was Friday, so we went for bubble tea! Yummy! (So classic for me!) It was my first time ever having cherry bubble tea. Very good! But what is cooler is that it was Craig's first time! He had never had bubble tea... lol, shame! Anyways, I think he liked it. Anyways, when we got home we started thinking about playing some games. Uno, cards, card tricks... saw some of Pirates, and the season 3 christmas episode of family guy, just b/c it's getting close to christmas... I can't wait for christmas!!! Just over a month!
That makes twice this week I stayed up late and straightened my hair. I can asure you that I have no idea why I do this. It's not like anyone will see, and by the next morning it's not perfect anymore. Plus, it's probably not the best thing to do to my hair... I can't explain it. - On another topic I sooo need a haircut! (If you read my blog last year you would know when I say that I do, it's usually a really long time before I get around to it!)Today I had my oral presentation. C'était en français! yah, you could say that it pretty much went just like any of my other presentations... not good. I can name only a few presentations I actually liked... and that was because of my pretty visuels... lol. Yea, when it comes to orals, I tend to talk really fast and make very little sense. After class I was talking to this guy who was also in my class last year, and he cheered me up by saying that I at least seemed more confident this time. yah! Shame I can't be more calm when I have to go up there. Oh well. At least it's over. That's all I can say!Well, you knew it had to happen. I'm wondering if anything is really avoidable in this situation. You were kinda a jerk though. I don't know what you were thinking... but perhaps you liked the way it was going. - I doubt it. ha ha. Or you wanted to stop it, but were scared. Well I have to say I am as torn as you. Well, maybe not.
I don't know how to say it. No, - scratch that - I don't even know what to say anymore. I feel as though I may have finally run out of things to say about everything - except the stupid things of course.I knew November would be a hard month. I just do tons of work... and seem not to get very far. I still have just as much at the end of the day. But I think most people have that feeling.It took me over a year to say it: but I really do just want to go home right now. I love this town, that's not the problem. I just really want to go home. I can't explain it... cuz it's not like there is much there either... I don't really even care about seeing my family that much. I wish I was better at English, then I would be able to express this feeling. Après avoir pensar, je me rends al conclusion que jaimerais obtenir el mismo sécurité que jai allí - pour ceci jaimerais retourner chez yo ahora. Je sens plus de paz là. Il ny a rien que vous pouvez faire pour le changer, c'est simplement la realidad del situación. Mais, yo sais que je ne peudo pas y aller. Donc je reste ici - pas totalmente contente, mais yo sais también que cette emozione passera bientôt. Nous avons tous des giorni gris.So, I went to a translator, to translate that and see if it would make sense... I was not amused that like 80% of it was right. That was too high... so I took out all the accents and apostrophes. But then I got really pissed when I found out that even if you don't have the accents, it still got the words correct! I don't understand that!! So, I made it in spanish and french! HAA! and I kept the apostrophes out! Somehow I think it is still understandable... grrr...
Haha, holding this pose was actually making my eyes water. Anyways, I just wanted to say that yesterday, althought it may have been one of the worst days, I was still optimistic all day. You can't get yourself down about things that don't really matter. Yesterday:7:30am - it's so painful getting up that early.8:30am - got back midterm from friday, worst midterm mark in my life - a personnal échec. 10:00am - ran to group meeting which only lasted 45mins. (upset about that - not happy!)11:00am - canceled gym for the rest of the semester with Ber.12:30pm - Went to program library - it was closed for lunch until 11:05pm - Went back to library, found out only yesterday it would actually be closed until 1:30pm1:45pm - Went back to that library, couldn't find what I was looking for - actually didn't even make it all the way inside though.2:00pm - 9:45pm - did nothing, not even homework... somehow managed to play on my computer and watch TV that whole time.9:45pm - f'in fire drill!10:00pm - 11:00pm - disapointing episode of gilmore girls.And that is why yesterday sucked! Oh- did I mention today I had to wake up at a quater to 7? Painful!!
So I'm wondering if fall was simply skipped this year. It seemed to go from nice summerish weather, straight to snow and coldness. It snowed this morning... and now it's really cold. I'm cold! I hate weather. meh. Yesterday was intersting. I loved our 4 hour phone call Tacky! I hope neither of us get into any trouble for that. ha ha. It was great to catch up with you, cuz you know I love gossip about our friends. lol.
School has been the devil lately. I had two difficult midterms this morning, one right after the other. No need to discuss how they went b/c I really have no idea, although one I certainly have a better feeling about than the other. Anyways, I know it's my fault for not studying as much as I should have, it's just that it's been years since I have been in the center of so much drama. I remember a time when I used to love it, I used to enjoy that long phone calls about gossip and the being extra bitchy because you felt you had a reason. Those were the good old days. Drama now just doesn't seem as fun. It's rather annoying actually. Has current events caused me to receive a lower grade on my midterms today? Sometimes I would like to think so, just so that I could have someone else to blame, but the truth is my lack of studying is really only my fault.Okay, that was a little vague, but I am kinda sick of talking about it.
It's halloween... or has the french say: c'est l'halloween. ha ha. Today has already been pretty good, finished classes, went shopping with Heather at the mall and helped her get some pretty shoes and pants. ummm, no exact plans yet for tonight, but I'll be hanging out with Craig and Ber... maybe going to the haunted house, maybe trick-or-treating... who knows yet.Last night was a girls night out, Heather, Maggie and I went out for dinner...yummy, then came back to my room to chill for a while. Oh... and they saw pumpkin Jack! Yup yup... craig and I carved him finally. Although we noticed a huge spot that was rotting, so we took that out, which explains his giant mouth. We also carved the other side... it just looks wacky! lol. I love that pumpkin! Anyways, we also took the pumpkin seeds and roasted them with salt.... such a yummy snack! lol. Pumpkins are super cool.
So here is what you have missed since my last post. That play I went to see with Maggie... it was just plain weird. Thank goodness it was so short... although by the end I was almost starting to understand what it was about. lol... picture this: Three urns. One head on top of them simply sticking out. The middle urn was the male, the one to the right was the wife, and the one on the left was the mistress. The urns do not talk to each other... they only speak in french... random babbling... sometimes all at once, sometimes in monologue. Did I mention that their goal was to speak as fast as possible? Well, I could barely follow any of it, it was simply that fast. Maggie on the other hand, probably only understood a couple words. awww... anyways, that whole play was just weird.Then Friday, Craig and I went to do errands. We went all over downtown, ended up with some beavertails and groceries... excellent. Saturday was fun cuz Maggie and I died Heather's hair black and then I helped Maggie die hers black too. Then we all dressed up in our halloween costumes and went to the cabin with craig, chris, louis, jon and john. good times... probably a bit scandelous for my taste. meh.
Today has been a pretty good day. Got a midterm back in a french class... decent mark indeed. It seems like finally I'm getting the grades I would like. I just over reacted before. meh. Then in my other class I acted totally nerdy... answered a lot of the teacher's question... OUT LOUD! Yah... that's right! I actually VOLUNTEERED! Of course I was 100% sure of the answers and was probably the only one who had done the homework, meaning nobody else knew the answers... but besides all that... my point is that I actually talked in class today... oh ya, and here is the best part - it was in french! C'est vrai! lol. I like good days like this. And tonight I get to watch a play with Maggiemoo! Even if the play really really sucks, I think I'll have fun. Plus, the topping of the cake is that my kitchen is decently clean. Last night I heard some mystery person (probably Craig) doing a lot of dishes. All of our forks, spoons, and knives were back and the plates were all stacked! Although the plates had not been washed yet, I was so thrilled to see the cleanness that I personally did most of them! It was probably the first time in weeks that I could see the bottom of the sink and some of the counter! WOW!
This morning I was talking to Steph from high school. I literally hadn't heard from her since graduation probably. That's sad I know.. it's probably mostly my fault. But anyways, we were catching up, and she was rather shocked about what I have been up to lately... although not as shocked as I expected her to be. She said she predicted it, especially when I got my car and started to drive... she could see me transforming. I never really realized it, but it's kinda true... that was kind of a defining moment for me. Sometimes I wish I was still exactly like I was in grade 10+11. She's right though, I was different even in grade 12. Maybe not significantly, but still.... I was soooo less focused on school work. I wish I loved working hard again... grrr...
Thank you everyone!
Somehow the walk along rideau river, Craig's and my plan, turned into a shopping event. The river led us down towards downtown... and we wandered into Byward. lol. Went into a bunch of cute stores in the area, (French book store, rocky road chocolate factory, sugar mountain, and even giant tiger), then we had our first beavertails of the school year... yummy! It has been a pretty good morning.On our way back to school it snowed. Ever so slightly, but it was still magical. Of course it stopped right away too, but that's so not the point. - In two weeks I'll be sick of winter... lol.
My gawd, did I ever need that retail therapy! Thursday was just a terrible day. Friday however was like wonderland! It was UofO day on campus so all classes were 
cancelled! Woot! In the afternoon I went shopping with Craig, he bought some stuff... then we met up with Maggie and Ber... Ber finally bought me a beautiful watch for my bday (THANX SO MUCH!)... Then Maggie and I went Halloween costume shopping at value village. So cool! They had the whole place decorated for Halloween and Maggie and I decorated cookies with little kids - super fun cuz we made purple spiders! lol. Sadly I don't think you can tell they are spiders from the picture... oh well! Then went back to Maggie's for a sleepover. First we watched some One Tree Hill... then she dragged out "Guess Who" and we played SEVEN rounds... I guess I have to admit that she did in fact win 4/7... but I won the first two! (I could have easily played 7 more rounds!) Anyways, this morning I walked home (damn it's far! + cold!). Now I must get some work done. ta ta!
Trust me, you don't want a picture of me right now. My eyes are all puffy and red... tear stains on my cheeks. I don't understand what happened. I studied like crazy for this midterm. Spent all day Sunday, a few hours Monday, had a very productive 5 hour study meeting on Tuesday, and studied last night after my classes, and even this morning before the midterm. I knew I was prepared. I was ready to meet that midterm and do well. How could I not with all that studying behind me? After all, it's sometimes more than I usually do.Well, let me tell you this. I got to the midterm, everything seemed fine. It was 5 questions. First two went okay, third was a struggle, fourth I think I did pretty well... but that fifth one... worth 40% of the test.... I sat there and had no idea what to write. I looked at those words as if I had ever seen them before in my life. This was for one of my classes in french (but french was not the subject of the class), and so I asked to teacher if she could explain them to me, since she knew french wasn't my first language. She wouldn't. So what could I do but make up some stupid answer. Which was wrong. But here is the kicker - I actually knew the answers. If I had only known what was being asked of me, I would have done pretty well. Oddly, I have taken tons of tests in french, and never had this problem before. It's not my lack of french knowledge that was even the problem!I have never cried over grades or a test before - that I can remember at least. I have been upset, and sworn often... but I don't cry over stupid things like grades. Well, today, as soon as I was forced to hand the test back in, my eyes started to well up. It didn't make sense that even though I knew everything, that I could not have gotten 40% of the test! Later when I looked it up in the book I found out if I had known what the question was asking, I would have been able to at least get some marks. It's so not fair. This means the max I could even hope for is a 50% on the test. BTW - I just want self pity right now. I don't want to hear any lame words of encouragement or hearing that the same thing happened to you. Nor do I want any stupid suggestions! That's why I don't want to have any comments on this particular blog (don't worry, normally i love comments, so they will be back up next blog). I don't need to know that you have read this and think I am pathetic.
So many midterms. So much work. No more time to relax and have fun. Have not even been able to dress up poor pumpkin Jack. Well, I don't really want to talk about the things I have to do, nor the things I want to do but can't b/c of all the work. The coolest thing I have to tell you now is that I just found out the french equivalent of the word "lol"... it's "mdr" (meurs de rire). so if you see me use the word mdr, I really mean laugh out loud.
Apart from the whole writing my essay thing today, it's been a pretty good day. Wait- no... i must be thinking of another day. Essay writing ruined my day! Well, almost ruined it... Going pumpkin shopping with Craig made it pretty good. We bought a pumpkin for like 2 dollars at a local grocery store and dragged it back to our apartment (up that crazy hill!). I named our pumpkin Jack and was talking to it the whole way back.. lots of people starred at poor Jack.... I felt sorry for him. lol. One day we shall give Jack a proper bath and then give him a face. Jack will look so cute! In other news, I'm pleased as hell that it hasn't snowed here yet, but pissed about the unseasonably cold weather. It's seriously cold! - Don't ask why I'm in a t-shirt... I was in my warm sweatshirt but wanted to get another pic of me in my blonde shirt. lol. Also I have taken up a new hobby. Sudoku. Trust me, I didn't want to add to my already nerdy reputation, but it's such a fun and addicting game. I'm terrible at it, it takes me forever to do the 'easy' level puzzles. Whatever.... I just need more practice.
okay, so that's technically not what I look like RIGHT now... as I am sitting here in a huge black sweatshirt (my bro's old one - and it could probably eat me if it wanted to). But that was me like a minute ago!
