Compliments

I don't know what to write. I have so much work to do this weekend <-- this fact can't be stressed enough. To solve this problem, I'm just going to write in point form so that i don't need to make actually paragraphs...

• I went shopping with my friend today. I missed her.
• I have to work tonight. No pay.
• "FEJ" is still cute, but there can never be anything that comes from this. It's a fact that I don't actually like him - this doesn't change his cute level.
• I was complimented today by the most unlikely of people. (Hence the title).
• My brother stole his MD back. I am currently music-less.
• Dinner party (AGAIN!) 2mora. Rachel and Jason are comming. They're cool.
• Accepted to two 'u's - early

Well, work soon. BIES!!!

Bite Me

I have to work tonight. Bite Me. I have to work (for my church) for the next three days. Bite Me. I have two projects, and a test next week. Bite Me. I told off one of the only people who ever really looked up to me and thought i was cool. Bite Me. I just realized i'm over the guy i liked for several (literally!) years. Bite Me. I have started talking about ppl behind their backs. Bite Me.

BITE ME!

So not me...

It's not like me to forget something, in fact i so rarely forget something that my parents say i have a memory like an elephant b/c "an elephant never forgets". Wow! By that sentence i totally sound like a little kid. Anyways, today i forgot some of my homework at school (shocking!) - my point is that that is not like me at all. It's actually very rare for me and i feel really empty because of it.
So, guess what i did about this montrous problem... I went and e-mailed my teacher. Wow! Now i sound like a total nerd! - Apart from what i sound like, i'm actually sad that i forgot my work, and i'm scared of getting in trouble 2mora. - just meet my teacher and maybe that last part can be justified for me.

I feel like breaking down (not just for the reason above). I don't actually know why. Pourquoi es-ce que je trouve l'explication de mes idées si difficile? Pourquoi trouve-je que c'est imposible de communiqué mes problèmes? No sé. (that last part is Spanish, incase you are trying to look the word up in a french dictionnary).

So, yesterday was a snow/ice day and they closed down all the buses. Needless to say, i drove anyways and stayed at school despite the fact above. 67% of my classes had less than 55% of the students in attendance. That's a weird fact, but what angers me is that i believed that I had to stay at school, despite this, and my brother got to go home. Little fils de putain! Je vais lui tuer un de ces jours! (pas vraiment, mais vous savez ce que je veut dire [j'espère]). It's not fair that he was allowed to go home, when i had to suffer through pointless busy activities. Je suis fâché.

Another thing about yesterday was that it was V- day. That was annoying. Une de mes plus grande désire est d'être plus amical avec le nouveau garçon à l'école. Vous savez à qui je pense. Ayuadame por favor!

"Where she belongs is not here! But there is no place for her to go."

Dracula has come to suck your blood!!!!

Read the title and you will know which book I am currently reading. I don't understand why "dracula" isn't a very popular book, b/c i really like it. It's full of suspence and in general, it's very well written. I just don't understand why not yet Oprah's fav. jokes, i never watch that show.

Anyways, it's a new semester for me, and, with a limited number of shocks from "the real world", I think it will be a half descent semester. Much more work than the previous, but mark wise, my strengths are all here. Well, as many of you know, a new semester often brings new kids to a school. Let me annonce, here and now for all to hear, that the new kid (let's call him "Fej") it's a hottie. Not only does he have the whole european look about him, which my school seriously lacks, but, he is down to earth and i have already embarrased him. Personally, i don't think that yelling "BYE FEJ!!!!!!! across the caf. is a big deal, but this is high school. Meaning that the rumour mill has already begun and i will get a beautiful but lengthy report about the situation on Monday. Since we all know that high school is about remembering all the bad/stupide things that you have done in your life. not jokes.

Have a descent 'mester ppl

Good Mood (with rewards)

Today i woke up after the best sleep i ever had! You know that feeling when you're like "wow! that was awesome" ??!!?!? Well, no matter, it was a nice long sleep...
Finally first semester is over! It was not good mostly because Math was so depressing. I think i did well in french and Soc. since i never had many probs with them all semester, but i'm like totally failing math so i'm really depressed about it. Although, it's over now and i never need to think about it again!!!! - at least not until report cards come out, in a few weeks. I'll probably cry when i get them. (I'm not usually this mark obesses - like some ppl).
Right now i'm listening to "American Pie" (the Madonna version). It's good - such a classic! "the day the music died... we started singin' - bye bye miss american pie...." "THIS WILL BE THE DAY THAT I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" <-- not litterally ppl!! Some ppl might believe too much. Remember, today was good. Why, you might ask... well, let me tell you why... I went shopping, and bought:

1. New jean jacket ($30)
2. Pens (purple, pink, light blue) ($5)
3. Hot pink underwear x3 ($20)
4. Lunch / snack ($6)
5. A little doggie toy for my dog ($5)

Surprisingly, that is a lot for me. I never buy lots of stuff and splurge that much! Maybe it's my new job that's doing this to me. - Which reminds me - the one thing that is going to make this day less cool is that i have to go to work... :(

BIES!! "Bye bye miss american pie"

Be Nice

Not the ppl should be nice. I just hope that this web site will be nice to me today. Yesterday you may have noticed that my post was doubly-posted. Know idea why, but that's why i'm asking it to be nice now, so that it will not screw up on me again.

Nyhoo, the unimportance of life was revealed. Next i feel the need to discuss the insults i heard today towards mes vêtements. C'est méchant de dire que vous n'aimez pas les habilles des autres devant eux. Notez s'il-vous-plaît que je n'est jamais fait cela d'une façon aussi méchant que j'ai entendu aujourd'hui. Peut-être j'ai dit que quelque chose aux passé, quand j'était une très différente personne. Maintenant je senterai trop triste après avoir dit des choses de mêmes. Croyez moi que cela me donne des difficultés depuis que je suis une personne qui regarde toujours les vêtements des autres personnes. Néamoins, je trouve que c'est méchant quand une group de personnes disent qu'ils n'aiment pas votre habille. Horrible.

I found that it is much harder to express myself in french, yet it's easier b/c i feel safer since i assume that people who aren't as fluent will have to look up a few words to understand the real meaning behind this whole thing. DEAL WITH IT.

Buenos noches!!

Latest News

Well, I can officially say that I did nothing over the winter break. I have a growing suspicion that I actually have many less friends that I previously thought. I used to believe that I was the only one playing the game of being nice to people and pretending to be their friend. Apparently not. I know that I do have some friends; those people who stuck beside me and called me once of twice during the break. To them, I honestly think highly of you! For those who didn’t and probably where not even thinking of me, yet I consider you a friend, shame on you! You have been caught. Hypercritical of me, maybe, but it hurts that I think of you as a good friend of mine but we never talk as soon as I don’t see you every day. What’s the deal with that?!?!?! Well, I would appreciate knowing the truth. If you are indeed playing the game I have played many times and am still playing, please tell me so I can have a bit of closure. You may have caught that last thing I said. Well, it’s true that I do play this so called game of friends, but only b/c I fear telling you that you suck, perhaps being your friend is easier than telling you the truth. Please don’t feel that way about myself, I will not get mad if you say that we should not be friends anymore. Wouldn’t it be nice if the people I play friendship games with were to come up and tell me this? That would only happen in a perfect world. In all likelihood, the people I thought I could trust to stand by my side will reveal there dirty little secrets. I admit here that I will be hurt, but I do believe that in situations such as this one, it’s better I know. Thank you for considering this request.

Maybe or maybe not your friend - Shannyn

Christmas time...

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Crazy Evil Child

By the title your probably thinking that i'm making a reference to myself in someway. Not true; today a crazy-evil child is comming over to my house w/ her parents for a dinner party. <-- my parents are obsessed about these. Anyways, my lil' bro and I have always been annoyed by this perticular girl. We have known her since before she was born (our parents go way back!), in other words, now that we are much older, we try to avoid her at all costs, but today, the day that ends all days, we have to see her again + hang out with her. Let me explain why she is so evil: she's six, so basically she is active and doesn't stop talking, she claims that I am her best friend (cute but desturbing)... Other reasons exist but they are not to be read on the internet.

My point with all that is that I have to put up with her and intertain her all day, an i really dun wanna.... *CRY*

I still have an hour b4 she comes... SAVE ME!

Better Mood

Today everything seems to be working out for me...
1. Surprise test this morning wasn't that bad
2. Lost something and found it
3. Got out of something I didn't want to do
4. All machines (including comps.) are co-operating now
5. Did a good dead this morning!!

That last one made me feel really good... In summary, i helped someone in need get somewhere that they were having trouble getting to. Sadly, it was the first time I talked to this guy, even though I saw him for like 2 hours everyday for three years... Still I made an effort, and that's what counts!

I think the christmas spirit has gotten to me... te he.

~Shannon~

Gotta work tonight

Hey! <- by the way, Mrs. Teacher... that is a word!!
Anyways, i'm finally posting again, not that any of you missed me! *WOW! I do have a black soul!!* So, i did some things i'm not proud of today, found out some hiden secrets, about why some people didn't like me a while back... must say that that hurt! To them I say that I would never be as mean as to say something cruel like that! <-- this is not where one inserts that black soul comment i said earilier... Apart from the sadness it caused when i found out that some people thought i was THAT mean... today wasn't that bad... expect that it's not over yet and I have to work tonight! I'm suppose to work 2mora too, but i want to see if i can get out of that... maybe my boss will not be there and will end up closing down the center. sweetness...

Well, i must be off .... à la prochaine!

Yah! My post is going to work this time!!

As you may have noticed from my title, lately i have been trying to add another post, but my crappy internet was perventing it...

Have you ever noticed that people often say 'you don't know what it's like to be me?' and most of the time they believe that they know what it's like to be any other person... These are the people that really bother me. It seems so hypocritical of them to say that, because they think that their life is so much harder than everyone elses. Trust me when I tell you that everyone's life is hard; Although someone's might appear easy on the surface, it's really not.

I'm annoyed every time someone believes that my life is easy. They see that my schedule is not a busy as their's and think that I do nothing and that nothing is hard for me in life because I have a semi-financial background. THAT DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING TO ME!!! I have a job, i help my friends when they ask, and above all, i sit and think a lot. I don't mean this litterally, because i don't have the patience for that, but i have severe moral issues. Things happened in my childhood that made me who i am today, but a certain issue has kept me from having fun. You can't forget it because it is ever present, and THAT is why my life is as hard as everyone elses.

Before you start with a million questions, such as what caused this severe morale issue, let me tell you that I don't know what it is. Honestly, something happened but I don't remember what. I know it was bad, but i'll never know because i'm afraid of asking the people who would know.


GROS CON!

Crazy Shopper

The title is a little incorrect. I’m not really a crazy shopper, I just love shopping. Sharon and I (getting lazy with these nicknames!!) just went shopping at the newest mall in Canada!! Let me tell you, it’s worth the drive! I got these really cool sunglasses because I need some for when I’m driving in my new car and the sun gets too bright… I’m thinking ahead for the winter!! I also got this cute new wallet from urban planet – first thing I ever bought from that store! It’s pretty nice and big so it fits a lot of stuff. Sharon got the same wallet only in light blue (mines black!)

Any normal person would be so bored listening to me talk about my new stuff... so let me tell you what's really on my mind. It's my brothers first year of high school and we got our marks back today... His average is 4.8% higher than mine!! I know he is in an easier school and taking easy courses, but i'm still really upset that he is getting good marks. It really pisses me off and makes me feel stupid... not fair!

Yams going crazy!!

lol.. Yam, you might as well give up, if they are on my 'bad' list, I will probably not tell anyone who they are. I'm 99% positive that you are going to comment on this entry with some sort of secret attempt to find out all of the people's nicknames that you don't know... BTW - how was your walk with Nye? (That's going to be a hard nickname for me to remember later!)

Anyways, I'm 'lost inside' too people! Confussion about true possible schools for next year, this year's grades, and thoughts about Mathew. (truely and obviously not that person's name!) It's just nicer that those shrot three letter nicknames that I give everyone else! Mathew is special!! Gifted on my levels and talented in many fields.

Apart from HIM, life goes on. Not sure how, but it does. I'm stressed, whether you believe it or not. (probably not)

Moddy little me....

Finally Finished Project

* Thank you, thank you, thank you, no really, you are too kind! It took a lot of effort but i couldn't have done it without a little help from each one of you. I only hope that when you have big projects like mine, that you will let me repay you for your generosity. *

That's an extremly sarcastic way of saying thank you for nothing! Evil ppl. I'm clearly asking for help and I get none! Now my projects sucks and we all know you will need my help sometime in the futur and I will give it to you. So, to conclude, I hate you all! - as you may or may not have already known!

Gros con!
Filles d'une putain de merde!
Vous êtes tous des connasses!!!!!


Shannyn

Doing Homework 2

Oddly I'm doing the same thing right now as what I did the first day I got this: Watching T.V. and doing homework. This has probably been the longest time since I haven't written in this. As you can tell, I'm not obessing over it now... Good sign. Anyways, you might be wondering who is Gan. Let me tell you she's the most annoying girl of all time! I hated her in elementry school and she still bothers me. I don't even hang around her but her annoying voice carries very well... how unlucky for me. Normaly I just ignore her, but when i started my 'bad' list, i was just thinking who really should be on that list, and her name came really quickly to my mind.

Oh well, i'm still working on my promis Yam. I'm stopping my rambling about it. Curses... must go.... bies!!

The 'JOB'

As the title may emply, I got a job. I'm not very happy oddly, but these means that i'm maturing now. Helping others and stuff... it could be good for me! Who knows... Anyways, that's my big news... te he.. anyways... that's it... very short blog...
BIES!

Blogging-addicted

How wrong is it to be fully addicted to blogging... Everything I do I think, maybe I should add that the next time I'm blogging. I know that that's really weird, but nothing ever really happens to me, so your lucky that you probably will not hear about it. Nyhoo, this year i'm graduating from high school and the yearbook-association-group asked everyone to write a blurbie about themselves. Mine sounds super lame since i decided to make shout-outs to a bunch of people, but i know there are going to be some people i didn't mention who might get mad that i didn't even say there name... Well, it sucks to be you then... that's all I have to say... Oddly enough, i did to something cool today... I went to UTSC, looked around, took two tours... learned some stuff, then bought the t-shirt ... well not really, it was a sweat-shirt (pink to match my new earings) but you get the point anyways!! Tomorrow I think i'm going shopping again... but where to go.... times square ... lol ...

Good Day in my life

Today was simply a good day, not only did my math mark go up 4% but I went shopping with Celia and got these really cute pink turtle earings!! I love 'em a lot!! - in fact i'm wearing them right now... Anyways, apart from all that, i have little homework this weekend which is always a bonus adding to the day. I'm in such a good mood today... I think i'm going to play with the font colors now... that sonds very childish and fun... Shannyn rocks!! -Accoring to Tara, "vous basculez mes chaussettes!" Although I speak some french, i know that this is the worst translation of all time!! It's suppose to say "you rock my socks!" but it really didn't work in french. It doesn't really work in spanish either, cuz i speak some spanish too...

Anyways, back to color happy fun.... I wonder how that's going to turn out... Well, i'm at a loss for things to do tonight...comment on this entry with some ideas!!

The Lists

You may have already noticed this by now, but there two lists on the site of this web page. The first is called the good list, basically it's the one you want to be on. It always has exactly 10 people on it, so to get on, you have to bumb someone off. The list just simply shows who has been nice to me lately. Since I was very young I have been making this list, and still even have the proof, but it was only today that I decided to put the list on my blog-seeing as how it's like a diary... You never know when i'm going to update it, and I'm not making any copies of it, so i will not remember if you were ever on my list or not. I hope you understand how it works.

The Bad list is actually very hard to get on, you must really really annoy me to be on it. Not even really annoy, but you have to be mean to be to get on it. (Please don't try to get on it!) There is not an exact number of people required for this list and there may be only one or twoperson on it at a time. Anyways, it's not that i hate you if your on this list, cuz i do honestly try not to hate anyone, it's just that you have hurt me in a way I will never forget. *I still remember some of the first people on this list, many who transfered often from the two lists.*

Anyways, i kind of feel like a bad person having "the bad list" but it just shows that you really hurt me. I may appear so strong, but i'm proabably one of the weakest people you have ever met.