You Turn Around At Do It Too!

Okay, for those who didn't know, I recently wrote this stupid report on rewards and punishments in a classroom setting. I guess you could say that I'm now an expert on how to get students do change their behavior/ get them to do what you want them to do. So ironically, the teacher I handed it in to, when she told me what my mark was on the first midterm (87.5), she said that she thought I was doing very well in the class. Is that not a little positive reinforcement? Singling me out and telling me that I am doing well... that's just low. Does she think I don't know what she's doing. It's obvious she sees potential in me that I can achieve but haven't. She's just trying to get me to think that if I try harder, I will do awesomely. I can't believe she would try to use that Skinner bull shet on me. Well I admit it did work at first, it made me blush a little bit. But then after the affect wore off, I realized that i'd been tricked. Most teachers use this to push the students a little more. Whatever.

Teachers suck for manipulating your minds!

I can see the finish line. I'm almost there. Wait - wtf? What are all these obstacles doing in my way?!?! Some look pretty mean and nasty...

That's pretty much how I feel right now. It's the last week of school and then exams start. I honestly did try to study today... it just wasn't working out I guess. I shall try again 2mora.

Somehow I'm still in a pretty okay mood. (not likely however that it will stay).

I just have to make it to christmas. I can do that! .... right?

Boring Day.

ack! today was terribly slow. I did some shopping this morning. Finished my study notes for my exam. Next step - learn everything I just wrote down. ack. so not looking forward to that. grrr.... i'm frustrated with my boredom.

Just finished watching 'the longest yard'. i don't like football, but it's a pretty good movie.
This semester is getting too long. I just want it to end right now. I want to be home. Damn the cold!

And So She Asked Me...

I my last post I mentioned that this girl was asking me about what I planned to do in the future. When I told her my plans involved simply marrying for money and going shopping everyday, she asked me, "well, why do you try in school?". At first I was a little dumbfounded. Why do I try in school? I mean, it's true that this didn't make sense. However, having reflected upon the question, here is my answer...

I never used to try in school. I never really thought I could do well in school, and that blondes like me were meant to grow up and marry prince charming and live richly ever after. My grades throughout elementary school and the first half of high school weren't THAT bad. I mean, I usually had 60s and 70s, and reality, there isn't really much wrong with that. (With the exception of my science mark that is). So anyways, the end of the tenth grade was my turning point. After we received a project that I was unusually enthusiastic about, I set to work on it. I didn't really plan on getting an awesome mark, I just thought the project was really cool and I spent a lot of time on it because it interested me. Anyways, when I got the mark back, the teacher seemed to like it, because it was one of the highest marks I ever got. Shocked by the idea that I could in fact do well in school if I applied myself, I started the next school year with a lot more effort. Almost all my marks in grade eleven were above eighty. Since then, I've just continued to work hard and get good marks. I guess I have started to value these, which have caused me to morph into a total nerd.

Another possible answer to this, one that doesn't involve me writing a memoir, is that, perhaps I do actually find a career that I am interested in pursuing. I would need good grades to get into it, right? Without them, I wouldn't be able to follow the new path. Thus, it's always important to keep your grades up.

On a totally unrelated topic, I just want to go home. It's too damn cold here. I'm so bored of studying. I actually skipped a day of shopping to study for this stupid exam. (What was I thinking?!!?!?).

I miss all you markhamers. And even some of the hicktowners.
I want a peths reunion. can you honestly wait 10 years?

Everything Is Always Right In The World - and it always has been

If they did a study to see what teenagers complain about the most, I'm 99% sure the results would all point to school work. Although we all complain about our work shifts, our families, or even our friends, I still think school work would come out on the top. I wish I could learn the techniques of simply ignoring it. I'm going to spend my weekend shopping and preparing myself for my first exam next week. Joy!
Whenever I'm not writing my blog, I come up with all these witty things to say, but sadly nothing is coming to me right now. feh.
So today I told one of my new friends my "life plan". (You know, the one where I marry a rich old guy and never have to actually work.) She didn't take it very well. I don't think she thought it was realistic. She told me that I would get bored of not doing anything. She is so naive. Silly little brunette doesn't understand the dream life of a true blonde. lol - ya, that does mean that I'm s blonde again. All is right in the world.

I miss my car. All I want to do right now is drive away from my problems. I want to drive fast. To push that peddle, and go really fast. A car would be convenient. I miss the exceleration. When I get back, I'm taking my lovely car for a spin. We will go fast. Everything will just fly by me, and I will be in control. Dream come true.

Snow, everybody loves you but me...

Chick walks into my room: "Shannon, did you see the snow?"
Gee, let me see... was that the stuff I slid on and nearly fell over because of this morning when I left rez.??!!??
Everyone here is talking about the wonderful snow. To me it doesn't seem oh so awesome.
It does seem to have put everyone in a good mood though. I could hear christmas music earlier today, and people are cheerfully waiting the end of the semester so that they can go home. Even my evil neighbour doesn't seem so bad anymore. A couple nights ago, when I was still very angry at him and his loud music, I started this list of bad things he did and I planned to hand it in and get him kicked off my floor. However, today, he came by my room and chatted with me (I think he's scared of being kicked off because other people have complained about him...). So ya, he came by and was pretty decent. I told him that he plays his music too loud, and I think he might work on that... so I'm in a happier mood. But trust me, the mood is not related to the snow, like everyone else's. Nyways, It's practically the weekend. woot! Some of my classes are almost over. Can't wait for xmas!

Curse These University Marks

They go down.
They go up.
There is no winning.
You work hard in one, it goes up.
You work hard in the other, it goes down.
There REALLY is no winning.

I have peace for the rest of the week. I am happy. No more serious studying until the weekend. Gosh, that puts me in a good mood. I came back from my midterm today, and just did nothing. I watched a beautiful mind and let me tell those who haven't seen it yet, it's an amazing movie! It's basically about this guy who is REALLY REALLY good at math. In fact, all his other skills (such as social) kinda suck because he is so smart. Anyways, so this social reject goes to university and meets his fun roommate. The roommate really helps this dude's social life. (I'm going to tell you what happens in the end, so stop reading if you don't want to know what happens.) Okay, so anyways, the main character starts to work for the secret service or something like that, but then starts to go a little paranoid because he thinks that Russians are out to get him. In the end, you realize that he was actually schizophrenic and that his job, and his roomate, and other people, had all been imagined. The only way he finally could tell that they were not real, was because they never aged even though he was aging.

This kinda freaked me out, because how am I to know if someone is aging, and thus they are real? It totally creeped me out, because I thought, maybe I am also just imagining everyone I see... and there is no real way of knowing. Grrr... total freak out.
Anyways, I think the fact that I had had a philo midterm before that forced me to really think about whether or not "I exist" just helped. lol, so creepy. Screw you Descartes! Of course I f'in exist! Why do ya wanna mess with my head like that?!?!?! DIE DIE!

Hasta La Vista!

1987 ~ What A Terrible Year!

Most reading this were 87ers. So this might interest you. In my personal research, '87 was a crappy year. I looked the year up, these were the highlights:

1. The U.S. and Canada signed the free-trade agreement.
2. It was the age of rock music videos when Michael Jackson, Whitney Houston, U2, and Pink Floyd each released new albums.
3. Nazi leader Klaus Barbie was convicted of WW2 crimes.
4. Zulu chief Buthelezi begins a civil war against South Africa's Africa National Congress.
5. Soviet Secretary Gorbachev and U.S. President Reagan sign the INF Treaty in Washington, D.C., to reduce their nuclear stockpiles.

And that's basically it. Not much happened that year. Sure much of the music released that year is still popular, and most of it was good. But that's basically the best thing about that year. Good Music.

Another thing that sucks about being an 87er is that you were too young to enjoy the 80s, unlike most of our older siblings or cousins. From what I heard, the 80s were awesome. We, on the other hand, were stuck growing up in the 90s. GAG! Those were terrible. In my opinion, the 90s were the years when the world started to go down hill. It started to get crappy right when we began learning how the world works. That's why so many of us are so fucked up.

And That's My Philosophy!
Now I just need to pinpoint the time when the world started to suck, and go back in time to prevent the hell we live in now.

Harry Potter With A Side Of Guilt Please!

This massive group of U of Ottawa students invaded the cinema friday night. The theatre could not have been more full. The movie was great, it got a lot of laughs. I think Ron Weasly is sexy! And Harry Potter is cute too. But all in all, I was suppose to watch the movie with my family when I came home. We had planned it during the summer, but now since I wouldn't be home until just before xmas, I didn't think that there would be time. I know I maybe should not have gone, and waited to see it with them, but I did really want to see it. And it was opening night (those are always the best). Plus it gave me a good chance to meet and hang out with new and slightly less new friends. I am happy with my decision to go, but nevertheless, I thinking I might just not tell my parents that I already saw it and let them take me later.

As for this weekend, it's study-hard for the final row of midterms before the exam attack. Lol. In bubbly-blonde terms, that means that I need to do some christmas shopping. woot! tis the season! Now, the right thing to do is to have a happy medium and do both. This could work.

In retaliation to Sammy's comment that he would love to see me try to bench-press anything... he is completely correct! I am a weak as anything. I went shopping this morning (damn the cold!) - for food! and I could barely carry aroud my little basket! I mean, even the little old ladies seemed stronger than I.

Nyways, It's one a.m. I should get some sleep. Harry Potter ROCKS! Go see it, unless you hoped it would follow the plot of the book, in which case --> never see it! There was nothing about houselves in the movie at all! All the important things that happened in the end of the book were pretty accurate, but the beginning is total messed up.

But I'm Not Lazy!

If I gave you three guess one what I did today, I doubt you would ever guess it. I assume that your first guess would be "went shopping". WRONG! After that, you would probably ask me "are you sure it wasn't shopping shannyn?"... WRONG I tell you! So ya, I really don't know what you would guess after that, but to save you the trouble, I'll just tell you. I went to the ........ gym! NOT to look at the cute/strong guys, but not actually work out! *shockes* indeed! So ya, my friend and I actually spent an hour there just exercising. I totally needed it too, since it's so bloody cold here now (yesterday = first real snow fall of the season) I haven't really been going out much. Ya, i do make it to the mall every once in a while, but there isn't anywhere really to go.

I also had a midterm today. Woot for psych! I'm hoping I did better than my last one... I studied less, but I think I understood more. Thus, I don't know what the result is going to be. feh. As long as I pass.

Que j'ai des problems de famille. Je ne sais pas quoi faire avec elle. Je n'ai jamais rencontré personne qui resemblait tellement a moi. Je suis tellement comme elle. Je ne veut pas devenir elle. Elle veut que je fasse des choses que je ne veut pas faire. Elle veut que je deviens cette type de personne. Celui qui s'amuse trops. Celui qui boit et fait des actes d'amours. Pourquoi es-ce qu'elle me fache tellement?

Sorry about that french part. If you wanna know what it means, it's not that hard. I didn't say anything important, so no worries. Well, I'll TTYL.
Can't Wait Til Xmas! The season is upon us. Be merry!
Shannnnnyn!

I Banish Thee!!

Today I noticed that I wasn't getting any work done. The reason, I soon discovered was because my laptop is such a distraction. When school had just started and my internet wasn't working properly, I didn't have this problem because there was nothing to distract me; however, now I don't want to do any work and simply want to play on my computer all day. Thus, having realized my problem, I banished my laptop from my sight. In an impulsive move, I unplugged it and hid it in an empty drawer under my bed. I didn't look at it again until after dinner when I got the urge to hook it back up again. I promised myself that after a little studying I would be able to spend as much time as I wanted on it. This has now become a form of punishment for myself, but it does help get the work done. Am I proud of what I did? No, it should not have come to that, I should have better control over myself. But still, it worked, didn't it? I'm thinking I should ask someone on my floor to keep it in there room so that I can make it through the weekend with as much productivity as I am capable of.
SO MUCH WORK TO DO!

THANK YOU TACKY FOR CORRECTING MY WORK! YOU DID SUCH AN AWESOME JOB! lol, and thanks to Heather too, although next time could you make it more clear what the changes you make are, it's hard to find the differences between my copy and your corrected copy if you don't make them distinct.

And lastly, an update on my hair. It's practically back to it's old blonde self. I think it might be slightly darker, but that could just be my view. I'm a blonde again. (yes sammy, I know, i never really changed, and that I will always be a blonde - but still, I think I might have been smarter as a brunette...) lol. BIES!

Happy Rememberance Day!!

What a festive day it is indeed! One might say it's more festive than ANY saint day! lol. I was thinking of putting one of those red poppies in my hair, and making a cute little thing out of it, but I thought later that it might be disrespectul. So I never even got around to buying one. Obviously somebody is lacking spirit! lol.
Nyways, I got stupid spanish class to go to today... I would love to skip it, but then I feel bad leaving my friend all alone. She actually has to go because she doesn't know much spanish, but I on the other hand, know enough already to take the final exam and pass... thus I don't really feel like going... but I will anyways.
After class, I'm going shopping with Lisa. I really need more stuff to decorate my room. It's so BLAH! All the girls on my floor have informed me that I have a surious lack of decorations. feh! WHATEVER! maybe I will get around to buying something today. we shall see. I also need more clothes. I LOVE THE MALL! (like duh!)
Shannnnonononononyn.

Signs Of Winter

No matter what somebody tells you, the first snowfall of the season is not a magical time!
It's f'in cold up here people! I curse Canada's weather.
It's time to pull out our hats & golves... and get ready for the ride.
I just want to go home (where I am sure it's even just a little but warmer!).
I wanna sit by the fire. Be warm. And let the spirit of xmas bring me joy.

FANTASY WORLD!
I'm stuck in the cold version of hell.


Can you tell that school is a stressor?

P.S. My hair has now started to turn back to blonde... so it's in the middle right now at a weird orangy color. Feh! No time to fix it. Must Do Work!

It Was Bolden Approved

So I was writing on of my first university papers, and I didn't know how to site something. What did I do? Well, I googled the cursed thing, but that didn't help, I couldn't find anything that would explain it, and when I did, it didn't really seem to be what I wanted. I didn't know what my next step was goign to be, so I tried to recall what I did last time I didn't know something like that. Of course I started to remember all these things about my high school, and the "CHITS". yea, i think we all remember those! Anyways, so I went back to web page approved by Bolden and that actually worked. It's weird that I thought of going back there.
No matter how many hours we spent making fun of the CHITS, I wish I had one now!

Cake + Birthday Party

My friend Steph from my floor's birthday was last week, so a bunch of girls from the floor went out for dessert to this really artistic style café, where we ate pretty (and frig'in expensive!) cake! It was really yummy! There were seven of us in total, and the night went pretty well as we started to share gossip about the people on our floor. Some of these things were really juicy...
Anyways, the topic somehow turned to what were some of the first impressions we got of the people on the floor when we first moved it. This one girl, who is really nice, but frankly a little too honest, told me that she and whoever she was discussing me with, thought that I was a super big bitch and that I thought that I was better than everyone else just because I never opened my door or talked a lot. I was frankly very shocked to hear this, because most people who don't know me very well, think that I am just sweet and really nerdy. Either way, I got kinda pissed at her and raised my voice a little bit... as I ranted to everyone that it's a common misconception that shy people are bitchy just because they don't talk. I should have added that just because I don't talk to YOU! doesn't mean that I think I'm better than you, it just means I don't want to talk!
That cake was good though. And company was fun. But now it's back to work.
Shannyn.

I AM NOT A BLONDE (anymore)

Hello there. I have been dying to tell you my little surprise for some time. In an earlier post, I told you that out of excitement for our good marks, my friend (Berenika) and I went out an bought something. I wanted it to be a surprise for you. Although I accidentally told Tacky already what my plans were. Oops! anyways, so ya, my friend came over after dinner and I decided to dye my hair "punchy brown" and she went with "red pulse". Most of you know how blonde my hair was before this, but let me tell you hers was SO much blonder! Anyways, so ya, this is how it turned out: I think mine looks pretty nice, it's a nice shade and it looks pretty natural, although more fun than actually natural. Either way, I actually like mine. As for my friend's hair... well, she kinda went a little more red that we both expected. Let's just say she probably will be avoiding public for a while. lol. okay, jokes, it just looks like she went a little punk rockish. However, this isn't her style, so I actually find it funny. Just imagine that it's redder than an apple. That should help you picture it. lol. Nyways, hope you enjoy my little surprise, and get a laugh at the fact that your blonde queen is no longer blonde. lol. And let me also add that my hair is actually a bit darker than it looks in the picture, so ya, it's really quite a nice chocolate brown. Well, TTYL!
Shannyn - the brunette!

Riddle Me This

I just took this french placement test so that I could take a french class next semester. My results are a bit confusing. On the listening comprehension section, I scored 100% (woot!), yet on the reading comprehension, I only received 60%. I found that kinda odd and wondered what it meant. And another shocking thing was that on the grammar part I got 80%. I never would have guessed that! To me, that's the part I should have nearly failed - not the reading comprehension... which I thought might have been my strength. Nyways, the results confirmed that I am good at french. (shocking!) Thus I am happy.
I was also invited out to a bar today for my friends birthday. I'm not going. I would rather not waist my money on acoholic drinks in some nasty and dirty bar in Hull with people I don't REALLY know. It's not worth the boost in popularity.
'nyn

What Chance!

Got a midterm back from a course I could have sworen from the beginning that I was going to struggle with.... but turns out I got an 82. That's quite respectable for me. Thus my current average as of today is over 80. I honestly owe that completely to Spanish, and blaim it completely on Philo. This of course put me in good spirite today. So after class my friend and I went and bought something that you will probably be kinda shocked about when I tell you what it is. I'm pretty excited about it, so I want to tell you really badly, but I'm going to wait until next week, or the very end of this week. I will see how it turns out. Either way, you will be informed... so you can poke & laugh, or be happy with me. Don't worry, it's not something weird. It's very cool.
I'm excited. This should be a good week.
'nyn.

I Hate The Price Of Failure

I thought I was doing well in university so far. I was wrong. Just as I was starting to believe that I could be smart enough to pull of 80s, I get super bumbed out by a 66!! yea... that stung. I've been sitting here, bragging about my amazing marks for a while now... and I am now realizing that everyone needs to pay there debts. The midterm went pretty well, i got pretty good marks on most of the questions... except this one question that was worth 1/5 of the midterm... and I got 5%! yea... shocking. And oddly enough the girl I sit beside got the exact same mark, so when she got her test back first and told me the mark, I acted like it was a really good mark... but then when I actually got the mark, I felt like I needed to pretend to be equally as happy with it. Now I'm just super not happy, and I'm afraid of the marks in my other courses... what if they turn out to be horrible too? I can't bear to get bellow a 60 on anything... I would probably start crying if I did. I know they are only marks, but my stupid high school has corrupted my mind into thinking that nothing but 85s are okay. After receiving back my first two midterms, whose scores were both above that standard, I was in too good a mood. Now it's time for me to pay the price. Thinking about this is making me want to cry. I AM NOT HAPPY!
my life is plentiful of ups and downs. Sticking to one is impossible, life changes too quickly.